[.happy birthday mrs. emak!.]

It’s your birthday,Emak.
So I will raise a cheer.
Without you, my special, loving emak,
I would not be here.


Yes, I owe it all to you, Emak.
From the time that I was small,
You encouraged me in everything,
And tried not to let me fall.


Throughout my life your caring,
Brightened each and every minute.
You loved me and enriched my life,
And I’m so glad to have you in it!


I ♥ YOU, EMAK
I'm sorry Emak I missed your birthday, the time flew by so fast, I never realised that today is your birthday, until you called me. So let me just send greetings now, I hope it's not too late Emak, I wish you a happy blessing birthday, even though I'm late! Hope it is wonderful! And I will always LOVE you Emak....

[.Bulan Bahasa Kebangsaan.]

Alhamdulillah.  I won first place in the 'Pertandingan Menulis Cerpen Bulan Bahasa Kebangsaan'. Seriously, I never expect to win this competition. My short story entitle 'Semilir Angin Bertiup' was one of the meaningful stories that I've written. So, it's kind of appreciation for me won this competition...

[.I Love You as My Closest, Dearest Friend.]

People always say that friendships should be treasured.

But I want something more with you 'A'.

My love for you could never be measured.

I only wish you could see how I feel.

Will you even no how much I pain for you cry for you and try to smile, laugh, and shine for you?

No matter how it all turns out, I'll always be your best friend.

Thanks for being my friend 'A'.

we shared many smiles and many tears, 
we shared all our hopes and all our fears...

[.sleepy.]

i'm going to bed now. i think i've read much for my revision (i'm lying!), so i'm off to recharge for a few hours. will be back to stare you my book tomorrow night! ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzzzzzzzzzz.....

[.i love you kids.]

one of the things I noted several years ago was that each of children had to be shown love....


I ♥ KIDS !!!

[.study.]

OMG! final exam is just around the corner... and until now... i haven't start anything yet! so, which one i shall start first? Language Development? no... Language Description? erk... English Studies? I dont think so... Social Studies? what do you expect? =p

[.silent treatment.]

i keep asking myself. what i've done before. 'B' giving me the silent treatment for over 18 hours and until now... 'B' still in silent mode... we have been together for almost  5 months... i still have no idea what makes 'B' behave this way... and now... no more talking, gossiping, laughing etc between us... im just absolutely shut out... it hurts me 'B'...maybe i should give 'B' some time off... i know, u have try ur best to keep our friendship last forever... i love our friendship............. 

[.do not disturb me!.]

yeah... dont disturb me people! im being fragile now... my head is fully occupied with those grammatical things, vocab, poem, play etc... bla... bla... bla... ZzZzZzZzZzZz.....

[.finally........]

finally... my last assignment (LDS) for final foundation programme will be submitted tomorrow...now is the time for last revision.... chaiyok!!!

[. let me tell you something.]

im not childish but sometimes i have too be like one... i want to love and i want to be loved... children was born as a gift from God... the same things goes to me! so, everyone please treat me well or else, you will be considered as ungrateful... be thankful because you are lucky to have people like me in this world... and im lucky to have them in my life... love each other! as much as you can! this is the secret of happiness that people tend to forget. im not insulting anybody but please appreciate people! appreciate so-called friendship! and appreciate your precious life... we cant live alone...

 

[.i really need you now.]

tepat jam 9.25 malam bersamaan 16 oktober 2010... aku dapat panggilan dari mr. abah... dah lama aku tak talk personally dengan mr. abah... which i didn't expect at all... siyes tak sangka... semalam aku call mrs. emak... citer semua benda yang terkumpul selama ini... hari tu balik tak sempat langsung... mrs. emak busy sangat2... aku pon balik kejap sangat.... the same thing goes to mr. abah... aku sempat berbual-bual gitu jelah... so, aku balik macam tak balik...

siyesly, aku rasa down gila semalam... news yang aku dapat semalam betul2 wat aku jadi miserable... tapi nak cover punya pasal... terpaksa la jadi plastik kejap... buat2 happy... walaupun dalam hati hanya Allah yang tahu... ape benda news tu? let me keep it as a secret... biarlah... tu semua pon salah aku... i should be blamed... tu aku sedar... cukup sedar... bercakap dengan mrs. emak semalam, at least jauh di sudut hati aku... aku rasa sikit lega than before... mrs. emak betul2 bagi aku semangat which i dont think i have that... dah punah segala semangat aku sebelum ni... kadang2 aku fikir... kenapa aku masuk ipba... kenapa aku sanggup tolak segala offer... bukan aku tak dapat... tapi masa tu aku dah ingat nak jadi cikgu je... nak tunaikan harapan mr. abah dan mrs. emak...

call daripada mr. abah tadi really helps me... setelah segala yang terjadi... memang itu yang aku harapakan... in fact, tu yang aku mahukan... air mata lak memang tak leh nak control... sejak akhir2 ni tak tau la kenapa... mr. hati ni midah sangat nak sensitip... macam dah tak kuat dah nak terus hidup... tapi, walau apepon jadik... family tetap ada di sisi aku... kuatkan semangat aku... bagi moral support... aku sangat appreciate... thanks mr. abah...

[.terima kasih.]

aku masih lagi mampu untuk bertatih sendiri.

tanpa kau aku masih boleh hidup

bernafas

dan berlari.

terima kasih kerana melayan aku seperti sampah yang paling hina dalam muka bumi ini.

TERIMA KASIH!

[.what do you think uh?.]

selamat malam dan salam sejahtera... aku bukan nak melaporkan berita apatah lagi untuk merapu meraban... entry kali ni aku nak memupuk keinsafan dalam kalangan para blogger... boleh? sungguh takde kena mengena...

2 hari lepas aku keluar ke amcorp mall dengan abang wan... tunaikan janji nak belanja brader tu punya birthday... tak aci langsung... minta budak kecil belanja... payah ada member cam beliau... namun hati perlu dituluskan ikhlaskan... mood hari raya yang tak pernah pudar... nak dijadikan cerita, abang wan sibuk nak pergi beli apebenda alah tu.... aku pon tak taw... singgah la guardian... dah dapat ape dia nak kite orang terus pergi level 3 cari makanan... sekali kat eskalator ni adalah  1 brader ni jalan macam kena kejar en. hanjeng... suka suki beliau langgar ibu mengandung... tak berbudi bahasa betol! monolog dalaman je la masa tu... kang sound tak pasal kena kelar... ada sanggup?

pastu masa last eskalator tuh tetiba ada auntie ni turun... kira cam berselisih lah... muka dia very innocent... kalau ada earthquake mase tu... kompem dia tak sedar... entah camne dia nak keluarkan something dari handbag beliau....

PAP!!!!

jatuh wang hengget malaysia 50! yang tak bole blahnye... she didn't notice at all... gile bapak murah hati auntie ni... dan part yang paling tragis sekali adalah brader yang tadinye jalan macam tak cukup tanah tetiba berhenti pungut duit tuh!!! what the hell r u doing bitch!!! itu dah consider mencuri! jenyayah berat dan boleh dikenakan tindakan undang2 di bawah seksyen 13 kanun keseksaan yang paling terseksa di alam semesta neh! kalah honey starz! gamapang tol brader tuh! boleh je nak pulang kan balik... bukan auntie tuh berlari pecut... berdasarkan pemerhatian aku... kelajuan auntie tuh berjalan sangat mengecewakan... acceleration dia seperti tidak berubah... adakah pergerkan auntie tu statik? mari kita tanya cikgu fizik... hanya mereka mampu mengubah teori ngarut aku neh!

pastu brader tadi perasaan aku nampak action dia... yang hanya beliau lakukan adalah tersenyum dan tersengih! kalaulah kat Malaysia ada eskalator yang boleh tekan suis turun naik dalam masa yang sama... dah lama aku turun libas guna wedges mek meeerool...

moralnya adalah: jangan mencurik! berdosalah weyh!!!