[.definisi.]

lumrah manusia itu mudah. tapi kita cuba untuk exploitasi sehingga menjadi sesuatu unit yang rumit. hidup itu kita yang corakkan. walau bagaimana kelam warnanya kita cuba untuk mencalit dengan warna-warna pelangi. cukuplah dengan HIPOKRISI dan PEMBOHONGAN. tak salah kalau jadi diri sendiri.... :)

[.merangkak.]

memang mudah untuk kita gapai awan jika kita berada di puncak. tapi kita lupa masih ada yang 'merangkak' di bawah sana. meraba-raba pasir mencari sebutir permata. entahkan dapat entahkan tidak. tatkala memandang mereka takut untuk mendongak terlalu tinggi, takut nanti terkena silau cahaya. tapi cahaya itu tidak selalunya ada kerana hidup ini kadangkala dilselubungi gelapnya mendung. mungkin kita perlu sedar dan 'bersyukur'. sejuknya puncak ini bukan untuk selama-lamanya.

[.monologue.]

aku sudah penat  'terlukis' dalam potret sendiri. menjejak satu irama yang bukan aku lagunya. melintasi jalan-jalan malam, dan aku bukan neonnya...

keluhan demi keluhan terbit dari hati kecil ini, entahlah... aku bagaikan terperangkap dalam dunia yang tidak pernah aku impikan.

aku letih dan semakin tenat. aku bukan lagi aku yang seperti dulu. HIPOKRIT. istilah yang mungkin tepat untuk aku...aku inginkan kehidupan lama. bebas merenung awan. bagaikan aku bisa terbang sendiri di langit Tuhan yang serba luas. kalaulah aku dapat jadi seperti dulu...

tapi ini jalan yang kau pilih!

ya, jalan yang aku pilih tapi itu bukan yang aku dapat. aku terpaksa demi cita-cita.

kau menyesal? tiada jalan untuk kau berpatah balik. ini yang kau pilih. dan kau berada ditengah impian kau.

kalaulah aku dapat memutar masa...

belum tentu! tak semudah itu. salahkah kalau kau menjadi kuat. bagaikan pepasir di tepi lautan yang sentiasa teguh meski dilanda badai?

aku tidak sekuat itu! aku lemah! aku tewas dalam menggapai cita-citaku sendiri!

kau mampu. yakin dengan diri sendiri itu kunci utama dalam megejar kejayaan. buktinya kau sudah ditahap ini. insan lain belum tentu berjaya hingga tahap ini.

aku dah tak larat. mungkin ini titik noktah buat segalanya. jika mereka tahu betapa aku impukan kehidupan yang dulu.

kau mesti kuat!

mesti kuat!

dan kuat!

seandainya.... kuatkanlah hati ini Tuhan...

setelah sekian lama tintaku berbahasa mereka.

[. Happy Eid Mubarak. ]

Wishing you an Eid you will never forget! No shadows to depress you, Only joys to surround you, God himself to bless you, these are my wishes for you, Today, tomorrow, and every day. Happy Eid Mubarik everyone!

p/s: I'm going back to Johore tomorrow! ^_____^

[.brainless thursday.]

Another subject was added. Headache!

[.Fasting Ramadan.]

"O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed for you just as it was prescribed for those before you. Perhaps you would attain piety!" 

(Quran 2:183)

Why do we need to fast? It is our experience that temptations and ways of the world tend to spoil our purity and austerity. Thus we indulge in food all of the time, snacking and nibbling the whole day, heading to obesity. We drink too much coffee, or tea, or carbonated drinks. Some sexaholics cannot stay away from sex unless they do it at least once or more a day. When we argue, we leave our decency aside and resort to vulgar talk and even physical fighting.

Now when one is fasting, he or she cannot do all of that. When he looks at the mouth watering food, he cannot even taste it and he has to give up snacking and nibbling as well as smoking cigarettes if he does. No constant coffee, tea or Coke drinking either. Sexual passions have to be curtailed and when he is provoked to fight, he says " I am fasting that I cannot respond to your provocation". To achieve God consciousness or God nearness, a better word, we are advised to do additional prayer and read the Quran.

___________________________________BENEFITS OF RAMADAN_________________________________

Ramadan is a month of self-regulation and self training, with the hope that this training will last beyond the end of Ramadan. If the lessons learned during Ramadan, whether in terms of dietary intake or righteousness, are carried on after Ramadan, there effects will be long lasting. Moreover, the type of food taken during Ramadan does not have any selective criteria of crash diets such as those which are protein only or fruit only type diets. Everything that is permissible is taken in moderate quantities.

The difference between Ramadan and total fasting is the timing of the food; during Ramadan, we basically miss lunch and take an early breakfast and do not eat until dusk. Abstinence from water for 8 to 10 hours is not necessarily bad for health and in fact, it causes concentration of all fluids within the body, producing slight dehydration. The body has its own water conservation mechanism; in fact, it has been shown that slight dehydration and water conservation, at least in plant life, improve their longevity.

The physiological effect of fasting includes lowering of blood sugar, lowering of cholesterol and lowering of the systolic blood pressure. In fact, Ramadan fasting would be an ideal recommendation for the treatment of mild to moderate, stable, non-insulin diabetes, obesity, and essential hypertension. In 1994 the first International Congress on "Health and Ramadan", held in Casablanca, entered 50 extensive studies on the medical ethics of fasting. While improvement in many medical conditions was noted; however, in no way did fasting worsen any patients' health or their baseline medical condition. On the other hand, patients who are suffering from severe diseases, whether type I diabetes or coronary artery disease, kidney stones, etc., are exempt from fasting and should not be allowed to fast.

There are psychological effects of fasting as well. There is a peace and tranquility for those who fast during the month of Ramadan. Personal hostility is at a minimum, and the crime rate decreases. Muslims take advice from the Prophet who said, "If one slanders you or aggresses against you, say I am fasting."

This psychological improvement could be related to better stabilization of blood glucose during fasting as hypoglycemia after eating, aggravates behavior changes. There is a beneficial effect of extra prayer at night. This not only helps with better utilization of food but also helps in energy output. There are 10 extra calories output for each unit of the prayer. Again, we do not do prayers for exercise, but a mild movement of the joints with extra calorie utilization is a better form of exercise. Similarly, recitation of the Quran not only produces a tranquility of heart and mind, but improves the memory.

source: echo-of-islam

[.A night to remember.]

        

It was full of enjoyment. We had fun together as a family. Couldn't agree more. We were like sisters and brothers. You can see the pictures speak and tell you our relationship as friends and family. PISMP TESL 1.5, we were organised pre-ramadhan event as well as celebrating birthday babies from May to Disember. We purposely did that as we knew, we will have no time to organise any events after this. There are lots of assignments to be done before Eid, followed by School Base Experience, phase two of BIG... case study and etc... We live the life like there is no tomorrow. But, that night we really enjoyed! We had dinner together, grilled the chicken like kids, joking around. Everyone smiled for happiness. May Allah strenghten our relationship as family. InshaAllah....

[.Penang 2011.]

Yeaahhh! After a year planning we finally managed to go to Penang. Last week, Ameer and I went to Penang. Actually it supposed to be four of us, including Abang Wan and Haris but then, they had something to be settled. We arrived at Penang International Airport at 1005am on Friday. Since our flight was early at the morning, I actually skipped classes for Friday and because of I was full of excitement I didn't really bother about that! :) We checked in at hotel about 1100am and took a rest for a while. Let me conclude everything since it was 2 days of holiday only. On the first day, we walked around Batu Ferringhi. It was really really really awesome! I love the scenery there! At night, we went to Queensbay Mall. Its quite big... almost as the same as Midvalley I guess... We had our dinner there. For the first time I ate Thailand food. Not bad!

On the second day, we went to Georgetown and from there, we just walked based on the map. We managed to go to Chowrasta, Kapitan Keling and etc. We had our lunch at Nasi Kandar Line Clear, and I believed Ameer enjoyed the lunch very well. He really wanted to eat there! At night, we decided just to stay at hotel and packed all those stuff because our flight was at 0700am. We woke up at 0500am and leave Penang. Sorry I don't have photos and its only a fews. But, I did enjoy my trip. Maybe Kedah next time... ^_________^

[.Hijab.]

A kafir guy asked a muslim: Why do your women cover up their body and hair?

The muslim guy smiled and got two sweets, he opened the first one and kept the other one closed. He threw them both on the dusty floor and asked the kafir: 

If I asked you to take one of the sweets which one u will choose?

The kafir replied: The covered one.

Then the muslim man said: That's how we treat our muslim women..

[.Monte Carlo.]

Ok. Before I off to bed, I would like to put my thought on the recent movie that I watched last wednesday with Najib. Since living in the hostel is so 'fantastic', Najib and I went out and we decided to watch Monte Carlo. It was actually suggested by Najib at first. I was thinking of watching malay film but the timing was not so okay since Najib finished his class at 1.30pm. Actually few hours before I had time to look for the trailer and seriously I was mesmerised with the trailer. The story line also seemed catching my attention. Overall, I would say Monte Carlo was awesome. For those who do not know, Monte Carlo was loosely based on the novel Headhunters by Jules Bass.

Monte Carlo, starring Selena Gomez, Leighton Meester and Katy Cassidy as the main characters. Their acting were so great! damn great! Especially Katy Cassidy! There were acting beautifully that made the movie so romantic and sweet for those who are in love! Seriously! I would like to recommend to all to watch this movie. If you want to show your love. Do bring your lover to watch this movie and believe me, you won't regret! So enjoy the show people! :)

[.relax, take it easy.]

There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.Relax, take it easy

Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Assalam and hye guys... I'm not that stable now... my feeling mix up with things inside my head. I could feel that I had lost something in me... something that was in me before... my happiness is not the same as before. The sense of it changed differently. Everything has changed... and I.........

"... relax, take it easy JAAZLI... " 

[.Am I right?.]

Somehow, I do agree... :(

[.new timetable!.]

Emmm... what should I say? the official timetable has been announced and I'm quite okay with the arrangement except for monday and tuesday classes. I don't really like they put all the mass lectures in the whole day. Can you imagine I have to be seated for almost 5 hours! I'm no longer a human being after the class ended! another thing is I'm quite dissapointed with my Phonetic & Phonolgy tutorial class. I couldn't sign up for my favourite lecturer as too many students signed up with him but Mdm Joanne will be fine. Although she never taught me before but still she could recognise me! And as you can see there, on wednesday I only have 1 class which it supposed to be on thursday. But this bitch-boy changed my name from thursday to wednesday. I don't know what is wrong with him. Somehow I'm thankful that we are not in the same tutorial class... and now is the time for me to fully concentrate on my study. I don't really care about the pointer (maybe yes!) as long as I manage to pass the final exam... It is more than enough... wish me luck!

[.hopeless.]

I'm no longer a person that can be trusted. I'm tired of this game. it had been a long day. hard day to be survived. ...and I'm alone, trying to put my mind off by busying myself with unnecessary work. I'm now surviving one of the toughest day in my life. too much secret. too much pain. I'm trying to give my perfect smile and show that I'm strong enough, but deep down. it's not me. i should stop hypocrisy! but i can't, i can't tell them the truth. I'm scared of been isolated. I want them to be with me. Should I kill myself? Will it ease my pain? O'Allah... show me the right pathway... I can't live in hypocrisy...

...and again... unstable mood!

[.be like the bee.]

by Ibn Qayyim al Jawziyyah

As people are content with the world, so you should be content with Allaah. As they are delighted by the world, so you should be delighted with Allaah. As they are intimate with their loved ones, so you should seek intimacy with Allaah. As they desire to know their kings and their leaders, and to draw near to them in order for honor and status to be conferred on them, so you should come to know Allaah and seek His love, this will lead to the utmost honor and distinction.

Said one of the zuhhåd: “I can never imagine that someone could hear about Paradise and Hellfire and can still waste an hour without performing any act of obedience to Allaah; neither remembrance, prayer, reciting Quraan nor an act of charity or kindness.”

Someone said to him: “I weep profusely.”

He replied: “That you laugh while confessing your sin is better than weeping yet being puffed-up with pride because of your deeds. For the deeds of a conceited person will never rise above his head.”

The person then requested: “Please counsel me.”

So he replied: “Leave the world to those who hanker after it, as they leave the Afterlife to its seekers. And be in this world as the bee: it eats only good, produces only good, and when it rests upon anything it neither ruins it nor deflowers it.”

sources: Al Fawaa-id, Ibn al Qayyim al Jawziyyah (rahimahullaah) , Pg.187 & southernmuslimah

[.Contest : Banner/Header saya cantik.]

Since I am so busy these few days, I can't even spend my own sweet time to blog. Starting a new semester seems harder for this time around. The schedule is getting pack with those unnecessary subjects and for sure the major subjects are much harder than before. So, to treat myself and my unstable mood, I would like to join a contest by adamainaa entitled Contest : Banner/Header saya cantik.

As you can see, the picture above is the banner specially made for this contest. Awesome right? I just love the face-blue picture. It looks mysterious as well as artistic as the person is staring at you. Do visit the blog. Okay! Stop with bodeking... and now we back to the business. As one of the requirements to join this contest, I am required to tell why I made my header as such...

Okay people, maybe before this I had no time to explain why I made this header at the moment I changed it. Basically the header is all about me, myself, my life and my passion. People know me well, I am someone who loves crafty and arty things. I will put up things based on what I have seen as long as it is simple but meaningful. Just like my header. I like the font, it seems formal but the sketch/effect in each of the fonts makes them look unique. I purposely put the magnifying glass and mug to represent me. The magnifying glass refers me as someone who loves trying out things. I will do anything as long as I can achieve my goals while the mug is actually tell you about my unpredictable mood. Just like a mug in the shop, once broken consider sold! :) The picture of mine sitting on the capital letter 'S' means I am a friendly person, so be my guest people!

I think that is all about my header. If you have anything to ask. Do mail me! and for adamainaa, all the best in life. Have a nice day ahead! I would like to tag Azham Vosovic and Amalina Sulaiman to join together this contest. Good luck people... Thank you.

[.Alhamdulillah.]

I finally passed the exam, thanks to Allah. My pointer is just okay, but Im so thankful. At least I managed to pass.

[.you are my HERO.]

Dear Mr. Abah,

   You know how much I love you? It's hard for me to say it out loud but I believe you know that  how much I love and care for you... Because you're always thought about in such a special way, because you always do so much to brighten any day... Because you bring such happiness to others all year through, this wish for joy on Father's Day is warmly meant for you.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, MR. ABAH!

[.the distance.]

I know that you will always pray for me... care for me... and LOVE for no one else, except me. But why you keep the distance between us? I'm no longer a person who you care for...

[.written in the star.]

...One day I had a dream I tried to chase it

But I wasn’t going nowhere, running man!

I knew that maybe someday I would understand...

[.FINAL.]

The exam is just around the corner and the official date has been released 2 days ago. There was slightly changed in Education paper. Child Development supposed to be on thursday, but then they changed to the second week. It's another headache when 3 papers straight in a week! Only now I can feel the nervous-ness before sitting the exam. Sometimes, last minute preparation is not really good for your mental! ^_____*

WISH ME LUCK!

[.Kejohanan Olahfaraga Tahunan K.O.T.]

I'm so happy when everything is over. Yes I was not around, blogwalking and updating new entry for decades... I feel so older now. Luckily I still remember my password... if not... (pikirlah sendiri!)... Lately I was busying myself with the so-called 'important works'... since we are coming towards the end of the sem, there are like thousands Ujian Akhir Kursus, quiz as well as test to be sitted. I'm a robot who follows the instructions. Nothing more or less. That's why I'm here... (hahaha... xde kena mengena!). Ok people let us start with the Kejohahan Olahraga Tahunan. This year the K.O.T was held a bit late than previous years due to certain reasons. IPBA has so many things coming around until K.OT needs to be postponed. And It was not so hilarious as before... maybe because of there are a lot of assignments and UAK to be done at the same time. I would say the timing was not so okay... but still I had fun so much... at least...

For this year, I was in charge of costume, once again they gave me such heavy work! (Ingat senang nak buat?) They chose green dragon as the mascot! What do you expect? I was like £$%*^... I never made such costume before and didn't have any experience at all. I didn't even know how to hold needle... but still I took it as a challenge! Guess what? I won first place people! after wasted my time and slept at 3am for the whole week... I think I deserved it! Hahaha... so people, enjoy the show....... ^__________^ 

     

Thank You. Have A Nice Day Ahead ^___________^